Its been a little over a month since I last wrote. I've been thinking about posting, but haven't been in a mood to chat simply because I've been so down about our church going astray. It's been interesting watching the goings on from afar as we still get the church's weekly newsletter. I opened one of the letters one day and that set me back. Its been hard and I've been tempted (just being honest). Mark said he reads the newsletter just as confirmation. The other day he told me that this year the ladies ministry is not having the usual women's retreat, but are instead going to an IF Gathering. I would definitely not participate in that and you can read about the dangers of IF at Truthkeepers and Lighthouse Trails.
Wow! Thinking back, I remember getting that call to be a leader in women's ministry. It was something I had thought about, to play a bigger role. I could have said "yes" thinking it was totally of the Lord that I was being asked, but instead my first response was that I needed to pray about it, which was good. When I went to the Lord I heard nothing, which basically means "wait". I got counsel from my husband, which he said I am too busy, which I am. There was a deadline of giving an answer. In between that time of being asked and giving an answer, I was bombarded with guilt at not doing my part, not trusting God to open the time up, blah blah blah. Well, as you may know from reading my prior post, I declined the position and I am now glad I did. The leading of the Holy Spirit is so soft and gentle, as in that verse: 1 Kings 19:12 "a still small voice" (KJV).
What's been so hard about this whole apostasy thing is watching people I thought were strong in the Lord peel off in this apostate direction. And when you tell them the dangers of it, they pay you no mind. So I am losing friendships. Again the words of that song: All to Jesus I surrender, all to Him I freely give. I will ever love and trust Him in His presence daily live. There is a cost to following our Lord, as he described in Luke 14:26-27 and Matthew 10:37, we have to love Him first and most and that may cause problems in our other relationships.
Otherwise, life has been busy as usual taking care of children. Its a blessing, but my emotions have not been in the best way. I think I may be under spiritual attack as I have been depressed and irritable more so than usual. And have had more than my share of viruses. Ugh! I hosted a big party for my dear Everett, who turned 3 on Valentine's Day. It was a great party and I felt like the Lord spoke to me saying "this is your mission field" as I looked at all the guests. All these young people that don't know him. Well, this is all for now. May the Lord bless you and keep you.
