Feeling a bit low...slightly depressed...but not so low that I am not moving through my days. This week I went to our devotional group and house church, also visited with two girlfriends...a much needed lift. The Lord has been speaking in His quiet voice. Reassuring me that He is taking care of me...and my boys that have flown away. It is now time for me to rest. I was looking forward to this time, but having arrived...I feel differently than I thought I would feel. I am not quite getting with the program...at least not yet. I guess there has to be a sort of mourning period. Sigh. I know the Lord probably has some exciting things up ahead, but haven't caught a glimpse of them yet. Still just muddling about in my mud puddle thinking the rain will never stop. It will...but for now there are dark clouds above me.
As for Colorado, it seriously needs gray skies, but unfortunately the drought continues. Here it is January with barely any snow and temps in the 60's! I keep praying for snow (lots of it), but we remain dry. It is scary. The old testament speaks of drought as being a sign of judgment. I can see why judgment would come to America. Many are looking to government (man) for answers rather than to God. Where has honor and sense of duty gone? Is everything all about feeling? Feelings come and go, but the word of our Lord stands forever. I see our nation turning away from Israel and the constitution is not being upheld. My course of action? Prayer and keeping my mind stayed on the fact that our Lord is in control.
Galatians 1: 10 - For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to
please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a
servant of Christ.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I do not know where to begin. So much has transpired since I last posted. On December 21, our youngest son, Brandon, left home. He lives nearby, but he is living a troubled life. However, he is keeping in touch with us much better than our older son, Eric. Mark and I endured many hurtful things through the holidays regarding our boys. But we praise God that our marriage has remained in tact and we continue to stand together. We also praise the Lord for our church family and the many friends and family that have supported us through this difficult time. We are starting out the year by participating in a devotional group at our church. It has been a great way to start out the year and our new life as empty nesters.