The dictionary defines the word this way "unhappy listlessness" which I think describes me. Listless means a lack of enthusiasm. Yes, that is me, I have definitely had a lack of enthusiasm. It has come to me that this is a time of resting given to me by the Lord. I am struggling with it which I wish I was not. I am learning that we cannot and should not hang on to the past. That we have to let go and continue on with the Lord.
I am feeling better this week so I was able to get a few things done with the house. We moved Brandon's desk out and took it over to the thrift store and then picked up from the same thrift store a new desk that I purchased. Also moved some furniture around upstairs. Moved out our old recliner that had seen many days with pets and children. And we moved up the new leather recliner we bought in January. I moved a lamp and accent table downstairs and set them up next to my new sitting chair. Tomorrow Mark and I are going to be taking more things to the thrift store. It feels refreshing to get the house looking good.
I can tell Mark is feeling much more relaxed at home these days. All of this has come at a good time for him. With the new position he has taken on at work there is a higher stress level. It has been nice for him to come home to peace and pampering. One day this week he worked from home which was great. Since we have an office where he can work, I think he really enjoyed working from home.
I leave you with a bit of encouragement from Holley Gerth..."The goal is not perfection. It's simply to be in an intimate relationship with Christ each day, embrace who He created us to be, and seek to fulfill the purpose He has for us." This is what I am working on, but wondering a bit what my purpose is now (which I am sure empty nest moms all go through).